why do they love me?(a poem by pibby’s momma)
I just found out
there are two of me.
Somehow I didnt know,
nor did I see.
I am sitting here,
thinking about the signs,
trying just to figure out,
which one is really mine.
I have the one that I go by
it seems most the time.
She is sweet an innocent
would never hurt a fly.
the the second on?
Hmmm, who really knows.
she is very mysterious..
and goes with the flow.
I know that they love me….
Cant tell you you why.
When my mood always changes
and I hardly get by.
why do they worry?
why do they care?
when my life’s so mixed up..
to them its just not fair.
And, which one of me
do they really love?
andwhy with all the stress I cause..
and all mess my life consist of.
Sometimes I sit and ponder,
and wonder, why me?
Then I get really scared
and most the times I often flee!
My flee may be physical or mental..
So why do they keep hope?
When all of these crazy things,
is how Ive learned to cope.
I always seem to hurt them
always break their heart.
with all my lies and ways of life,
I say it is a work of art.
So now Ill say I am sorry.
apologize in advance,
for all the things I may do to you
in this crazy life we dance.
May 16, 2008 @ 5:03 pm
That was a really beautiful poem Melissa.
You have nothing to be sorry for, as you did not choose or cause yourself to have your illness, no more than anyone chooses to have cancer or any other debilitating disease.
It is not your fault.
Just concentrate on getting yourself better and surround yourself with those you love and who love you for who you are, like your son, Pibby, Holly, and your family and friends.
We are all praying for you and know that you are going to feel better soon.
Bette
May 16, 2008 @ 5:18 pm
It can certainly be a roller coaster! Hang in there and keep posting. Give Mr Pibb a big kiss from my Daisy Mae! Hugs, Ruth and Daisy
May 16, 2008 @ 6:54 pm
I love you just the way you are! I will keep you in my prayers that you find what works to help you be more stable. I am so glad my moods have settled down. It can be so hard to deal with.
May 17, 2008 @ 1:04 am
OK I have read a lot of things that hooomans have put together but that was soooooo coooool I may use it in my Blog,I pray for you and your insides love Buddy and the family
May 19, 2008 @ 9:53 am
Melissa, your poem is beautiful. It shows so much what you are going through. Be strong, get help and keep coming back. We love you and support you. Give Pibby a kiss from us.